Lately, my heart's been troubled about...well life...Life as we know it. Work is such a HUGE part of life. Without it you can't pay bills, have fun, support a family, and so many other things. But the bad part of work is it limits time with your loved ones, it tires you out, it sometimes depresses you, it makes you schedule your life around it. Work for me is fun yet tiring. I love my coworkers so much, but the actual work of being in the foodcourt and the hours make it hard. George sometimes has the exact opposite schedule as me, he works days and 3/4ths of the time I work nights. And the funny part is when I do voice a complaint to ANYONE, they say: Welcome to life. How horrible is that revelation??
I can remember when all my life was about was school, homework, going outside to play with friends, reading a good book, and playing Neopets on the computer. Life was so...well simple. When I met George I was/am so excited to start a new life and have a fun one. Then BAM bills. Soon I had to get a job to help us support our life. It was funny because before we got married, we both decided that I would stay home and be a housewife, you know clean, cook, take care of our house, run errands, etc...Now I struggle to feel like a good "wife". I get home from work and I'm exhausted, I don't feel like vacuuming, I don't feel like making a nutruious meal for my dear, tired Hubby, I don't feel like a wife. Now, you say "but I thought you said you work nights. Why can't you do it all during the day" well yes. I struggle to get up with George in the morning to make him breakfast and lunch and most of the time, he just lets me sleep....then I wake up and start cleaning, run errands, walk Abbi, and get ready for work. See?? It's like a never ending circle. But sometimes I get lucky and work mornings, but...it's the same thing, but those are my favorite days because I can see George and make him dinner :)
Yesterday, I was thinking, How great would it be to live back in the day when men worked 9 to 5, women stayed home: cooked, cleaned, and took care of the children. How simple. But nowadays both the man and woman have to have jobs in order to pay rent, bills, and everything else. It's so much harder...Welcome to Life. That's not really a good welcome haha.
You all must think I'm complaining...but I believe most of you have the same desire in your heart. Women just want to make life easier for their hard, working husband, but work in our lives complicate it. NOW I know that some women LOVE working, it empowers them. I'm just not that person...all I want to do is make George happy and comfortable at home. I guess...that's just who I am.
On the positive side...those days when you have the same day off are so precious. You realize how much you love that person and how you love to spend quality time with them. Life is so random and great at times..I guess it weighs out the bad at times.
Ok, I'm done :)
The end...oh and welcome to the random thing called Life...
